:: last month of the year ::
but then again, i was thinking, why blame the school. when i was in acjc, i was living in the past, living in the glorious times and the carefree moments of SJI that i neglected to live in the present. thus i had never put my heart and soul into any of the cca that i was involved in. in chinese drama, i was so used to the teacher's trust and freedom in me in sji that i forgot that i had to work to gain the trust all over again. thus this led to alot of friction between us and i could certainly say that neither the teacher nor i could stand each other.
in shooting, i was so preoccupied with my other commitments that i was multi tasking, thus i could not attain the level that i was supposed to be at. even now, as i glance back, i could easily outshine any of the shooters in acjc. but why do i even give them a chance to surpass me. looking at my scores now as i shoot at safra yishun, i felt wave after wave of regret, something that i am unable to let go.
the class was another issue. the teacher, i felt, was never there for us. never protecting us, never gelling us together. thus many of the problems surfaced and cracked the unity of the class. without a class looking out for each other, it certainly posed many problems in school, especially in terms of academic areas where study groups was very vital. it was really God's blessing that i managed to get decent grades and be accepted into a prestigeous course in NUS.
finally, i asked myself, why even though SJI provided a more holistic education, it was less 'glamourous' than acjc? one fine day, i told myself, i would ensure that SJI has the same attraction, if not more, as acjc. that way, more lifes would be touched and changed for the better.